Seniors ‘76

Have you ever been so nostalgic that the present cannot satisfy you in any way. You keep thinking “Back then everything was better.. my parents, my friends, my body, my everything”. Have you ever missed your old self so much you would murder who you are today just to be reincarnated as the light you once represented, the beauty you once knew, the spark. In your head you weren’t thinking this exact same thing when you were say, 12 or 13… The truth is, you weren’t. At least I wasn’t, I was in the present, I remember getting ready every night at 8 to watch my disney channel movies! Or making videos for my friends of me doing nothing at all. Completely shameless. This idea of being shameless that we have now, that we have developed as soon-to-be adults is flawed… It’s not shameless, it’s a “I don’t give a fuck (because I give a fuck)” attitude and it doesn’t work for me anymore. I enjoyed myself, I enjoyed my life back then, because I was developing who I am today, but who I am today got lost in insecurities and mistakes. Now I am nothing, I don’t want to start over from scratch, but can we go back to where the mistakes began, 2011.

I don’t sleep because I’m afraid morning won’t come. If I stay up and see the sunrise, I know it’s guranteed..

Bob Marley died today, May 11th 1981…

Bob Marley is my grandfather. Forming a relationship with his music and message is surreal a experience. I have to wonder what he’s thinking right now, about me, about my family, about the world… I don’t think he’d be happy honestly… I’m not… But I don’t know, things have changed since his death, his family has changed, the status quo has sort of changed, and the music industry has definitely changed. Thankfully, he is still a part of it. I don’t know, today must have been a hard day in 1981, for my family, for Jamaica and for people all over the world. I can’t imagine him taking his last breaths. If you haven’t already watch MARLEY the documentary about him, it is brilliant, I cried, a lot.